Worn out

The little cousins...Jessica and Lex


Jessica and Lex again


The big cousins Leona and Evie


Leona and Evie huggin

Hey everyone!! mmmm i just made a tasty dinner, Leek and Ham linguine was very nice ill have to do it again soon.
I'm worn out and my back is killing me (after affects of Lexs birth) , been to town and got my 2 bubs some new clothes as they are growing bigger by the day !! I will post some piccys tomorrow of how cute they look in them.
But for now enjoy the random pics above of the 2 nuts =D xx

Dummys, Sleeping and One tree hill!!

Well hey!! Im still watching One Tree Hill woooooo i love it. Lex has been stirring, hes been a bit of a monkey for sleeping since his tonsilitus so we are just trying to get him settled back into a routine.
Leona is still friendly with her dummys as in she still has them... so tomoro they are all going to magically disappear!! Oh my goodness that will be a whole other post
Anyway im off to bed night all xx

Pete has just applied to join the Army....

Pete with Lex the day he was born


Pete and Leona when she was a bubba


Me and Pete new years eve 2008


Pete about a year ago


Pete about 2 and a half years ago

Wow this will be a big change for us... we've been together 5+ years and never spent a night apart so it will be huge , i kinda feel wordless!! Anyway i will blog about the kids either after my One Tree Hill fix tonight or tomorrow =D
Keep praying for Stellan on mckmammas site or on the button a few posts down from this...Hes not having a great day keep them in your thoughts please xx

Where are all you bloggers seriously???

Me and my sister Sophsta!!


Lex boy in his buggy


Lil Lex boys beautiful Eyes


Leona lookin grown up at the Punch


Leona looking at her much beloved balloon at pizza hut!!


Why does it feel like I'm the only one blogging at the mo?? I know there are some that have stopped by and had a sneak peek at my page... why don't you come and say hi??!! i just want a bloggy friend to help me with pictures and stuff because I'm still not great at this!!
Anyway in other news i have a stinking cold again when will we all feel OK??!! I usually love winter but this winter is taking the mick a bit , it just seems like we have all been ill since October when my Lex was born and its now nearly April!!
Oh my goodness April?? no way. April 25th?? no way!! April 25t the day my "LITTLE" girl turns 3??no way!!!!!!!!!! noooooooooooooooooooo. i just cannot believe she will be 3. Its a crazy thought. She has just been too cute lately , you can probably tell by the pics of her she has the sweetest Blondie curls....Well recently shes been saying she wants long dark hair like the pretty people on TV ! Awwwww no way again!! I keep telling her she is soooo beautiful and if she wants to change her hair when shes around 50 that might be OK but til then no!!
Lex is doing good tho o since his nasty bout of tonsillitis he hasn't been sleeping too good. Hes waking up at least twice a night so we have to try and reverse this a bit and hopefully get back on track like before he got ill.
We have a mini party tonight , i think its in aid of my brother Ian getting himself a new job.But we are having the whole gang round , Mum, Dad, Sophie , Anna ,Ian obviously, his fiancee Crystelle and Kevin ,Sharon and my nieces Evie and Jessica are maybes.
Ill post some piccys of tonight and do a post of how everything went because right now I'm not that close to any of my family apart from My sister sophie.
So til then my fellow blogginogs bye bye!! xx

Yummy Yummy FOR MY TUMMY =D

Leona looking pretty in her purple coat at the punch


Smiley Lex in his coat



Peter and Me at the punch nice afternoon =D


My girl looking sooooooooo pretty and grown up


Me and my lil dude
Well yesterday like i said we were going to ,me Pete and the kiddy's ended up eatin out at the punch and Judy it was lovely! We had a good afternoon and yummy food, Leona girl had tomato pasta , Pete had steak as usual lol and i had a chicken korma with 3 pieces of garlic bread and a side order get in!! haha i could eat soooo much. Anyway Leona was a bit naughty and didn't really eat too much even though she loves pasta. We walked there as usual and got rained on a bit but Leona loves the rain bless her. Then when the kids were in bed me n Pete had a great night watching One tree hill i love that show.
Today was also good me Leona and Lex went to pizza hut for an all you can eat buffet mmmm yummy 2 great meals in 2 days. Lots of pizza , pasta and salad !!! Lovely jubbly. We went with Sandra and her boy Owen.
Remember to keep stopping by on mckmammas blog and pray for her baby boy who's currently in hospital with serious heart conditions.
Anyways bloginogs enjoy the blog and if anyone wants to stop by and say hey feel free!!!
xx

Highchair Happiness

Smiley boy =D


Smiley in his bouncer!!


Leona monkey put sunglasses on him when i wernt looking eeeek!!


Looking at his highchair!!he loved it


Waitin for his food in the highchair!!

Hey Everyone well i promised id put the piccys up of how my lil Lex got on in the highchair for the first time and he loved it!! he looked so small in there tho i just cant beleive how fast hes grown but hes still so dinky awwww.!!
This had better be a quicky today as im off in to town in a bit to go get lunch with Pete and the kids yummy!! Ill probably have a lasagne im afraid im not very adventurous with food!! Punch and Judy where we are headed has a little play bit for kiddys Leonas age so if we have time we will end up in there i bet!!
Remember to pray for baby Stellan whos having some serious heart issues , its so sad as hes around the same age as my Lex , but check out Mckmammas blog, you can find the button on the post below this one as im still new to this so dont quite know how to put it on my side bar yet!! If anyone could help with that would be great!!
And also i have a counter of how many visits i get and ive noticed some have stopped by!! yay!! But it would be great if you could leave a comment and say Hi coz i wanna make some blogginog friends!!
xx

Pray For Stellan

Mummy and Lex eating out at the Punch and Judy


A really old 1 of me and LeeLee girl, dont you think she looked like Lex when younger?


A wonderful picture made by my best friend Nikki , shes a gem.


Leona pretty perfect i say.


My chubwub Lex =D

Read all about baby Stellan here , He could use some Prayers right now , stop by and give some encouragement!!



Oh my Gosh where does the time go?? Is there someone out there who just decides to fast forward time when they feel like it ?? aaaaaa!!! My lil Lex boy will be going in his highchair to eat today for the first time, his bouncers just not cutting it anymore!! Time to upgrade. Ill post some pics of that later , see how he gets on being a big boy!!
Leonas doing good ,lil monkey as always !! Shes just Growing so big and beautiful she will have lads chasing after her that's for sure!! ill be beating them back with a stick , and the way Lex adores his big sis he will too!
Ill post later to let you all know of the highchair trial!!

Alexaviers Wonderful Birth Story :)

Lex and Mummy


Lex in his lil fluffy coat


Lex a few hours after he was born still at hospital


About 30 seconds old, magical.

well i just wanted to write this down before it goes from my memory i want to remember every detail of this wonderful day ,it was so different to the birth of my dd which u can also read about in my journal.

well let me just say id had an absolutely horrible pregnancy. id had loads of problems and it was a scary time for me, i had back problems as in bad ones my spine had started to curve ,my muscles were coming away , i had pre-eclampsia again,i had bad morning sickness, and even my stomach muscles had started to rip apart, (with my dd it was totally the other way round i had the perfect pregnancy no troubles but a very traumatic birth). my midwife and doctor were really scaring me saying it would maybe be best fro me to have a c-section which i did not want for a number of reasons. so i was dreading this birth and was convinced it would be even worse than my first judging by all my pregnancy problems etc.

well i had my son on Wednesday 1st October, but the Sunday night before that weds at about 10 pm i started getting irregular contractions they were quite painful so on Monday morning i went and got checked at hospital, i was convinced they'd keep me in as with all my problems in pregnancy and i was 9 days overdue and they didn't want me to go too overdue coz of my pre-E but anyway at hospital the monitor picked up a few minor contractions and turns out i had an infection /(pregnancy one) but didn't look like bubba was coming. i then got examined and i was only 1cm so they gave me a membrane sweep. they were also worried that by there measurements my son hadn't grown much in the last month so i was sent for an u/s and i was told that my boy was on the small side and would deffo be smaller than my dd who was 6lb8oz they thought around 6lb he'd be.anyway they sent me home after that and i was having the odd contraction on and of.

for some reason i was really excited Tuesday night and had oads of energy even tho i was still getting the odd contraction, i decided to stay awake for as long as i could rather than try and sleep,by 2 am weds morning i just knew this is it i had such an intense contraction like nothing id felt not even with dd i knew i was in est labour. so i stuck these contractions that were coming every 4/5 Min's and lasting a good minute each time then at 5.30 am i had a big show of blood and other stuff and contractions came every 3 mins i knew it was time to go to hospital.

i had decided if i went into labour at night /early morning my OH would stay with my dd so she wouldn't feel like wed both abandoned her (shes only 2 ) so my mum came with me to hospital and they planned to swap round at midday . arrived at the hospital at quarter to 6 in the morning and got given the best birthing room it was nothing like my dds birth. the midwife done a check and said i was only 1 cm still i was distraught convinced i was gonna get sent home but the mw could see how regular and strong my contractions were and let me stay. i had a nice hot bath which lasted til 7 am and the contractions were still as strong and regular. it went on like this all morning ,when finally the mw decided to see if id progressed at about quarter to midday (my mum went out for this to phone Pete and tell him to get his bum up the hospital!!my bro had taken Leona for the day so mum ended up staying as well as Pete ) anyway i was nearly crying convinced i wasn't dilated any further then the mw said i was 6 cm !! yay i was sooo happy but then she said she had to break my waters which i was absolutely fine with and understood why she had to do it. she actually spent about 20 ins trying to break them as they were so tough they were hard to get into but she done that and it was a relief

by this point id decided i needed gas and air , i had managed with nothing p til then which was mazing considering what happened in my last birth(also to point ot that since 2 in the morning id remained active and standing up the whole time ,its how i survived without pain relief)Pete showed up at about 10 past midday and was getting used to my gas and air which was wonderful stuff i loved it!! I've since found out that i have a very small pelvis which is why each time I've spent 2 hours pushing which is quite along time for a pushing stage but basically i was getting contraction after contraction right on top of each other and pushing for absolutely ages with all my might. they tell u to grip your legs and push your chin down to your chest as hard as u can and when i done this i got a severe cramp in my leg it was worse than the contractions!! i know that sounds odd but it was extreme u could see all the muscles in a ball where they'd cramped up midwife was frantically rubbing my leg trying to ease it out as she knew this was affecting my pushing.

then everything changed, the midwife said hes coming now just push push push and i pushed and felt his head come out it was the best feeling ever , then i had to wait and do little breaths and i pushed again and felt his body slither out it was wonderful and he cried starlight away !!! omg it was gorgeous hearing that cry after what i went through with Leona and i was so proud as at the pushing stage the contractions were so in tense i didn't have time to breathe my gas and air so i virtually done it with nothing.they wrapped him in a towel and i noticed he had a huge blue birth mark over his back which worried me but that same day it faded to a tiny small red one just above his bum its cute.

his cord was wrapped twice around his neck so Pete didn't get to cut it bt i got to hold my son straight away it was the best moment it was so precious he was gorgeous ,beautiful everything i could of dreamt of . he weighed 7lb4oz (quite big considering they told me just 2 days earlier wed be lucky if he was 6lbs!!)he was born Wednesday 1st October at 2:42pm and we named him Alexavier Phoenix Mills. i had a second degree tear which had to have quite a few stitches in and i got stitched up with no meds or anything as the anesthetic didn't work and they gave it to me twice but didn't have any effect so that was painful.

i was out of the hospital by 10 0clock that night to get home to my baby girl Leona and i have to say shes an amazing big sister and adores her lil brother .my baby boy has to be the most peaceful happiest content baby ever and i am the proudest luckiest mum in the world

sorry its been so long but like i say it was really for me to remember more than anything it was such a special day.
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Leonas Terrifying Birth Story =]

Mummy and Leona at Flatford, i was heavily preggo with Lex, that night i went into labour and had him 3 days later.


Leona lookin summery on Felixstowe beach


My fat lil pudd Leona as a babe, spit of Lex?


Newborn Leona a few hours old, precious.

Right so where do i start???

Well at the beginning i guess......The moment i found out i was pregnant was life changing.All sorts of thoughts were going through my head.The first thought was "Oh no"How do i tell my boyfriend So i just come out with it, i didn't even think, just said ,"Guess what I'm pregnant" And u should of seen the smile that spread across his face he was so happy. So there u go that's the 1st hurdle over.

Then how do i break it to every1 else??? It was hard for them close to me. There were tears questions ETC: You see, when i found out i was pregnant i was a week away from turning 19.So yeah young i suppose??I was still living at home,i had no job(i had quit hairdressing because even tho i was a Saturday girl since the age of 13 i just didn't enjoy it),So as i had no job obv that means no money.BUT DO U KNOW WHAT?? All these negative thoughts on it i never even considered having an abortion because its not what i am.No way never,and trust me i was not in the best position to bring a baby in the world but i did.No question in my mind if it was the right choice.

All thru my pregnancy i got frowned upon by midwives, doctors anyone really.I wasn't young enough to be mothered and cared for like 13/14 yr old girls but yet they didn't think i was old enough to be treated with respect. That made me so angry.

Girls who have been pregnant know u have to be checked often for yours and the baby's health.It was such a struggle trying to book an appointment because they always put me to the back of the list.Through the whole 9 months of pregnancy i was probably seen about 5 times if that.By different midwives.I never had a main midwife to look after me.I got passed to anyone. I didn't know who was going to be delivering my baby,and no docs or mids told me about labour and birth classes or groups of any sort so i didn't know what to expect.I was pretty scared i can tell ya

I got admitted to hospital 5 days after my due date.I was there all day not really being told much until about 4pm afternoon a midwife come along and said "Oh by the way we r going to induce you,Ur staying in." So my boyfriend had to quickly ring round n tell everyone.They gave me a tablet bout 5 pm to start me off so i was getting more nervous.They said they would be back 8/9 pm to give me my second 1.They finally came back half 10 at night and said "Sorry we cant give u your second tablet because we r short staffed tonight ." Then they walked off and told my boyfriend to go home.

So i was all alone then.It says in hospital rules that partners are allowed to stay if u r in labour.Well i had been getting pains about an hour after they gave me the first tablet and i told them this and asked if Pete could stay they said no.I asked some1 else if they thought i was in labour and they said i will be getting pains because that's what the first tablet they gave me does and they should have given me all of the tablets. So understandably i was angry again that they had just left me like that

About midnight /1ish i got a show of blood and any1 who has been thru it knows this is a pretty good sign ur in labour.I went and told the nurses, They told me to go back to sleep even tho i was getting pains every few Min's.So once again i was left scared,alone and in bad pain. Finally about 4 am they come and TOLD me without asking me that they were going to give me pethidine and it would knock me out for about 3 hours.

So they injected it in the side of my back and just as i thought it done nothing apart from made me worse.It didn't knock me out at all..So i put it up with it still all on my own.Id asked a few times if i could ring Pete and my mum and get them here .They told me no. I bet all u mums who know have a question for me?/If i was so sure i was in labour why hadn't my waters broke?And yeah i was wondering the same thing all night even with my limited information id had whilst pregnant i still knew my waters should of broke.They finally did at 8am.everywhere.A lot trust me!I felt so much pain wen that happened i called a nurse.

She saw my waters had broke and i could hardly walk and u know what she said??Go to the reception desk(a few rooms away) and ring ur family.I COULD NT EVEN MOVE 1 STEP HOW THE HELL WAS I MEANT TO DO THAT?? they then said oh we will ring for u.So Pete and my mum arrived 45 mins later.By the time they got here i was so upset about what id been thru all alone that i didn't really notice them much..Then a doctor came round and said right WE ARE GIVING U AN EPIDURAL (again no one asked me) they started to get the needle ready to put the drip in the vein of my hand and as if i wasn't in enough pain the doctor was talking to some one just as he was about to inject,he got the wrong place and i looked up just in time to see my blood shooting out of my hand like a waterfall because he popped it.it went right up to the ceiling.God my hand swelled up to ten times its size and it was black and blue and hurt for weeks.

I had to have 4 people hold me down because my pains were so bad i couldn't stay still and they put the epidural at the bottom of my spine.ALL U MUMS AGAIN will know u r not meant to have an epidural if u are over 6/7 centimeters dilated.Well no-one had bothered checking me and turns out i was a good 8 centimeters.So the epidural made things worse and as it numbs u i was meant to be pushing for the baby's sake it was getting in distress they told me,yet i couldn't feel wen i had to push because of the stupid epidural i wasn't even meant to have but was forced to have.

They were all yelling at me Laura u have to push get the baby out and i was hysterical.I just couldn't do it.Then they got the vontousse out and basically its like a plunger trying to help get the baby out.I didn't mind that they again hadn't asked me if they could do this because i knew it was best for the baby.So they were doing this for a while then i heard them say if the baby's not out within 3 pushes we need to do an emergency c-section get a theatre ready.Well do u know what??I was so scared for the little life in me that i got the baby out on the last push.

Then i heard uve got a little girl,my happy face turned to fear when i realised they hadn't placed her on me and i hadn't even heard her cry.they were resuscitating her for 3 minutes as she wernt breathing :( then she started breathing again thank god..

She was perfect.I'm not going to go into much detail about my after care but it was just as bad.They left me sitting in my own blood for about 6 hours before they told me to go bath myself and they told me to clean out the bath tub after.As u girls will know not an easy task when uve just had loads of stitches.But i did it.Later that night when they told peter to go i said to the midwivesim scared of looking after her because my hand hurts so much i was scared that id hurt her by not holding her right and do u know what they said to that"Get over yourself uve just had a baby the last thing u need to worry about is ur hand"

I was so hurt by that comment. I got out of there as soon as i could the next day and yes before anyone says i know i was soooo lucky to be walking out of there with a healthy baby after everything that happened and i truly do know how lucky i am.it could of been a whole lot worse and I'm thankful she made it.Luckily i never got postnatal depression after the birth.I loved my Leona-Amy to bits and wouldn't change her for anything but i did get something called post traumatic stress disorder.It was just suffering nightmares about it all the time and flashbacks and crying when i thought about it.

do you know what i found out when i fell pregnant with my son?? that i had severe pre-eclampsia that's why they induced me. how could they have not bothered to tell me that at the time?? because they failed me that's why

thanks for reading girls i know its been a long one, i will be posting about the birth of my son in the next few days and that was a whole different experience ................... xx